All growth is a leap in the dark, a spontaneous unpremeditated act without the benefit of experience."

— Henry Miller, Author

Monday, January 11, 2010

Happy New Year

This year certainly hasn't started off with the great bang that I expected. I've missed appointments, gym dates, been late for work, hurt my back, all in the first week of the year. It feels like my intentions are there, but my mind is just MIA.It's like I've got this BOSS master plan, but I haven't caught up to it yet. I'm still moving at 2009 pace. After about 5 days of this ridiculousness, I checked up on my astroanalysis for the year and GUESS WHAT? According to "the stars" my New Year is projected to start off roughly  until around the 15th when planetary alignment changes, thwarting me into the beginning of great things. It projected that this will be a powerhouse of a year for me, (which I can feel) and warned of burning out early on. Funny, but I've thought about the same thing with all of the goals I have planned.

All metaphysical arguments aside, (because I'm not interested in hearing anyone's religious rhetoric against astrology) I think it's nifty to ready something like this that really does fall right in line with what I'm experiencing. That being said, my negative feeling about the way the year has started have ceased, and instead I'm pushing on the best I can until things straighten out on their own and I begin MY new year. I also have to be careful not to burnout too soon. I know this is a real threat because I tend to be very idealistic and "want it all right now". Patience has been one of the biggest challenges that I've faced in the past couple of years, but it still seems that I can't quite get grasp the idea of sitting back and waiting for things to unfold. I like to agitate and force things, which isn't always a good thing. This month, and this whole year for that matter I have to remember to focus on the day to day, rather than big picture.

I have goals and roadmaps to achieve them. All that I need to do now is take them one step at a time.